Day 2 - Breathe in and breathe out

A thousand colours I see as I swirl in the remnants of memories. I pray for amnesia but it eludes me and then I come crashing down like geese hit by a shotgun, but there's no companion to see me through. This is how it is. The trouble of leaving my dearest and the most loved. I'm trying to get lost in the chaos that blinds my ears and I swirl in the ecstasy of this confusion. A high that helps me focus with a bitter determination. As I walk I let the music drown me in an abyss of bliss so nothing reminds me of hurt or that level of misery that resides right after. As I wait in this realm, I remind myself of my life that stares me in the face. There's so much to do and so much pain to fathom. Every cautious second moves towards a decision for a future that would be engraved in the wet cement of life.