Ever heard of a time when you have this most-awaited test coming up and as soon as you've been handed the paper, you can't remember a word.. I mean a WORD of what you've studied. That's what happened this week, well, you see, I could give a million reasons why I didn't fare right. But the real reason has to be that I wasn't prepared enough. I had the exact amount of time my peers did, but they weren't so upset as I was. Frankly. I told myself as I saw the paper that I can't solve it. The boy sitting next to me, continuously talked his way to me, to the others asking them for answers, I couldn't concentrate. It wasn't possible. I gave up even before I began. I have never done this and I don't want to repeat this awful mistake. Gosh! I just can't imagine why it happend.
But I learnt so much. I almost cowered down to tears, and I spoke with mom for over 2 hours. This explains why I need my Mom. Nobody on this planet would get what I feel but her. That's when I realised that I was paying attention to irrelevant things and not trying to understand the problem. I think I forgot the reason, the prime reason why I was here. I dusted myself up. I woke up this morning, I cleared the room for some shuffling of beds and repositioning of things. I washed clothes and then later went to school to get the research books, I need for next week. I studied a bit of Finance and made contact with a recruiting firm personnel, it went well, will catch up over coffee this coming week. Seems like I did a few right things today. Now, I'll be off to making some origami. When you do something constructive, it makes you so proud to have invested time in creating something of your own, that's an amazing achievement I guess.
I hope I can continue to use my time well.
Love,
V
