You know what it feels like when you come home with a mission and it kind of fails? Well, I'm still figuring out that if it did fail or did something spectacular happen? I guess it's the latter. I've been coming to terms with many truths lately, and it just curbs me from inside, and makes me very pointy about the facts to the extent it makes me sound down right mean and rude. I know it's curt, but it's more like, haste, impatience..and that originally is the devil. I've got to play it cool, sober up...think of the most peaceful moment and walk the line...to avoid walking the plank.
Very soon, I will be going through a host of rigorous research articles and compiling a dissertation for which I'm quite eager to begin. But coming home was the biggest perk of all, the warmth you feel when you're with your parents is the biggest high and the lovingness (Is that even a word?)of your friends and watching them get slightly overwhelmed by the thought of your very own departure, shows that there is indeed love, and it's stupid of us to leave it all for something that doesn't even have any emotion. Hinting at $$$$$$. Well, but isn't $ the one who makes it able for us to become competent and luxurious and satisfy all our emotions?
The thought of "Being there" for someone is now more cherished than ever in my own dictionary. Trust has a very new level of seeking establishment. And Love, has almost been wiped out from the Dictionary. My colleagues and also my friends, are now semi-mechanical robots who have quietly accepted the conventional role of an employee and are leading their lives as structured by society and then there are those who are finding unreliable escape from the monotone and ruining the basic fabric of their ecosystems. I don't have any idea of what I would prefer, or what choice would I have a few months down the line..... Maybe I'd be writing a very definitive meaning to the menace I would be facing. Maybe I would have an entirely new dictionary.
And also a new kind of hope. A new kind of life.
Till then, we'll meet on the other side of the Indian Ocean..
