I discovered something unique yesterday. I had the power to say 'No'. I've been meaning to say it for such a long time, but sadly, I was always weaker, always simply foolish. Adolescent when I was supposed to be mature. I regretted that usage for a bit, but when I come to think of it. That was my first word for the revolution that my mind was mentally fighting for a long time. I said it. As soon as I uttered it, I wanted to repeat it again and again. It gave me comfort, it made me cry, but it gave me comfort. I have really few days left here and I told myself I would make the most of it. And I did. I enjoyed the company of those closest to me and it has given me enough confidence to face a little familiar looking alien world.
Yesterday, I did something I've never done before, although I did a little crawling, but I did remember the voice that said 'NO'. I've never experienced so much power that a woman can hold in her frail voice. Be it against a unkempt Boss, an inferior colleague or even a casanova lover. It indeed seems to be a new beginning. There is a huge mountain ahead of me and I guess, I don't care anymore. Because I've learnt to say No to the most desirable of things, to the most cherished things in the whole world.....to Love.
