I have been escaping for too long now. Escaping myself. Finding love when I knew there's nothing left. It's sad isn't it, looking for things in places that are barren. Uncaring and inconsiderate. But sometimes, this life inside me, is too cheerful, happy, it can just change attitudes in the flick of a second, change people, change hearts, make them love each other, make them love me. Great, life is good, of course it is. It better be.
I was in the mrt here, in singapore. You know it's a developed country, but yet still, so cold, the people. No one smiles. They just stare. I wore a big bumpy bag and since I didn't happen to see gradma 40 yr old right behind me, i apologised as my bag bumped her, she just stared at my big brown face. Oh c'mon, stop being racist I did smile, didn't I? Can't you be civil. If they were civil it wouldn't be a tourist country now, would it?
But one thing I know is that, I wanted to get the heck out of that mrt, when all I could feel was the anger and the frustration with the foreign nationals cluttering their private spaces and it can get annoying you know, quite like what bal thakeray feels when he talks about foreigners coming to mumbai. Funny isn't it, he talks abut nothing happens. these singaporeans keep quiet, and things happen. The government makes sure that the foreign nationals especially students don't get a job here and take their job away. Well, if talent is what you want. I will make sure I'm talented dude. That's all I can be, that's all I have to offer.
It's a long way to go, but a very short time, to stand back up on my feet again.
Love to jaggy, robs, and richard for making my day.
